Lost
In the labyrinth of my head
The giant maze of all my responsibilities
My brain on overload
I need to press forward
To stay ahead of my bills
To stay ahead of my life
Before the house of cards falls down
It’s like the game we played
On the first PC we owned
An IBM 286
Walking around a castle gathering treasures and fighting
villains
With no end, no victory
So many twists and turns
Too many dead ends
And the fear of finding a monster around the corner
There are no good surprises here
I rush down the path
Many miles traveled
Just to find another wall
Turn around and go back the way I came
So much time wasted
A monster comes out of nowhere.
Emergency! Panic!
Rush, rush, rush to another corridor
Completely lost in the chaos
Start again from square one
I need to find the map
The guide, the key
Until then I am trapped
Unable to escape
I tire easily, my eyes close.
I dream about being free
Away from the monsters and cold, thick walls
Happy.
Until a monster roars me awake
Back into the darkness
I continue on, step by step
Trying to find the exit
Before the maze consumes my mind
4 comments:
Excellent! I love the metaphor of the game. It works really well. Sometimes what we really need in life is another corridor.
Thank you! In my case, there are too many right now. Being home and locked down has the “what if’s” churning through me, and I need to get organized and back on track. Now that I have a diagnosis and a plan, maybe it will work this time.
I had a friend with OCD abd I have seen the struggles up, close, abd personal. I can relate to everything you write here.
Wow, thanks so much. My writing is therapeutic in a lot of ways, so I’m never sure how my audience is understanding what I’m trying to convey. I’m very glad you see it.
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